Revelation

I had a Revelation. A rather spectacular one, I might add.

As I was floundering around last night, trying to find the meaning of life (that is, wondering what the heck I was going to do with mine long-term), I tried to think of what would make me happiest in the long run. What do I really enjoy doing?

The answer to that question is obviously, "write." However, I'm not going to make any money doing that (statistically) so I need to find something to occupy my time. The answer to "occupy time" would be to "get a real job." Could do office work or something, but that's just so many hours of the week dedicated to something that I'm not passionate about, with no guarantee that I'd be writing anyway (if the last few months are any indication).

So. What else do I like doing? The answer to that is reading. Also, editing. Thus: publishing company. But if you see a few posts below where I mention how I don't want to work for a place that seems to be in it for the money more than anything else, and how I don't want to move to a giant city where publishing takes place, well, you'll see that's not exactly the route for me.

So if I can't do writing, and I can't do publishing, WHAT would I do?

I've always thought it would be ideal to work from home and be my own boss. I've thought this since childhood. You know, with my "don't tell me what to do" complex, it gets a little hard being in someone's employ. I could work from home, take vacations when I wanted to, hang out with my kids until they go to school. It seems like the best thing ever, really. But what would my business even BE? You see all these people who can do crafts or like... I don't know. I don't even know.

But then -- here it is -- what if I started my OWN little press? One dedicated to the preservation of more "traditional" (read: Piercey) fantasy for young adults? Meaning, no feeding this vampire-sodden market with all those whiny female "heroines." I obviously wouldn't publish MYSELF, that seems a bit sus to me, but I could totally work with some OTHER people. If you know what I mean.

I don't know, I still have to look into it, obviously. I've read a total of like, two articles on how one might go about doing this. It would take lots of money, so I'd still need a "day job." But with something like this, surely I'd be more dedicated to the cause. With other people depending on me, I wouldn't just say, "Oh, you know, I can do that later." And then never do it.

I would need things, obviously. Like contacts. And a cover design person. And stuff. I don't even know what I'd call it. But I'm going to seriously look into this, guys, even if I don't follow through. I'll be planning things during nap time today. It just seems like it'd be GOOD, you know? Something I can be proud of and happy doing.

WHO WANTS TO HELP?